A cloudy week and the silence that hurts.

Assalamualaikum wbt, hi there world.

Last week was cloudy.

1. My first week without Syamira.

Syamira is a best friend of mine in school. I always looked forward to going to school because of her. You know how school doesn’t really sound fun until you have someone you can count on seeing every day? It felt like it was just me and my bestie against the world.

But Syamira has now transferred. We knew this day would come the moment we got close. She went through so much just to make this transfer happen. There were countless tears shed along the way, but finally, after all the drama with PPD, my dearest friend was able to move to a school that allows her and her family to live a happier life. At the end of the day, when family is by your side, everything feels more bearable, right?

I know too well what it feels like to be far from family, so although my school bestie is no longer walking the same school grounds as me, life has to go on :)

2. News of my KP leaving.

As if losing Syamira wasn’t enough, I was also hit with the news that my beloved "Ketua Panitia" is transferring too. My heart felt so heavy. Must I really face one goodbye after another? TT

Kak Ziah is a teacher I deeply admire. She's a hardworking, dedicated, and genuinely kind to everyone. Of course, I was sad. It felt like being hit when I was already down :,) But I also completely understand her reasons. Career growth matters, sometimes you need a new air and environment, and most importantly, this is a decision that benefits her. It would be selfish of me to hold her back when she has the chance to spread her wings even further. Who am I to stop her?

All the best, Kak Ziah!

3. My student was beaten up.

No matter how heavy my own heart feels, it’s nothing compared to the grief of a mother whose child comes home bruised and bleeding. Imagine sending your child to school in good health, only to have them return swollen, battered, and hurt. My sadness for the victim is deep, but my disappointment is just as strong toward the student who carried out such violence. This should never have happened in school!  Violence has no place in the values we try to teach. This is so wrong! Plain and simple and I am heartbroken it happened in my own school T_T

4. Global Sumud Flotilla (GSF).

I can’t even find the words. My heart aches with every update on GSF. Ships carrying humanitarian aid were blocked and seized by Israel. Not only blocked, but the volunteers were also harassed, mistreated, and humiliated. And then oh, the audacity they spread propaganda saying it was a “threat” from Hamas? Like, excuse me you blind people??!!! I have never felt this much rage at the cruelty of human beings. Israel is truly SHAMLESS. DISGUSTING! BIADAPPPP! KEYSEKIYYAAA!

And as I type this, the third wave of humanitarian mission to Gaza, the ship CONSCIENCE is intercepted again. SUCH COWARDS!!!.

5. My favorite idols, choosing silence on Palestine.

At times like these, even silence is a choice. I’ve been clashing with other fans who defend our idols, saying, “It’s up to them whether they want to speak up or not. They’re adults, and wwe shouldn’t force them.” HELLO???? are you blind here? Our idols choosing to stay silent is already a statement in itself. And it’s disgusting. The issues they’re ignoring are not trivial things like whether you prefer kimchi or not, coffee or matcha, winter or summer. NO! This is HUMANITY we’re talking about. People are dying. Children are suffering. And our idols? They choose to look the other way?, AND YOU CAN SAY IT'S FINE??.

and oh yes, because they’re adults and capable of critical thinking, that’s exactly why we should be furious when they deliberately choose silence. It just proves one thing: our idols are being willfully ignorant. And honestly, shameful! Why are we even supporting people who can’t speak up for basic humanity??

What a shame. What a shame!

I am so sad. Bye!