Disapa rindu.

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Sakit betul rasa rindu ini. Sakit.

"There are days when I have no strength to go on, I feel so weak and I just couldn't help asking 'why?'.. But I have to go through all these pain because I truly accept and believe that to Allah we all belong, and to HIM we'll return."



Pak, rindu :'(

Al-Fatihah untuk bapa.
Di sana.


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