Ini Zafirah Ripin

Bismillahirrahmannirrohiim. Assalamualaikum wbt. Hi, there. Moving on was always easy for me. But this one, it hits different. I gave myself a week to grieve over my past relationship that has been crumpled and gone. It's time to help myself and my heart to heal and feel better. So that I am here, because as far as I know, words can also comfort me best. Well the least I can do to help finding myself again :) After the love story that I designed met it's ending, I came up with another journey. I am healing. Trust me. In my case. I have two thoughts (lessons) from this heartbreak. 1.  I should put this in my concern that Allah SWT is protecting me and him from loving each other in a wrong way. And, of course Allah SWT must be keeping something best for us two even though we are not meant to be together. For each of our selves, a better future is awaiting. In shaa Allah. Amiin. 2. This is a win for me (even if I was being cheated- I am a girl dealing with a man. This kind of nega...

Bismiilah. Assalamualaikum wbt. I've stopped being a lover.  Again. The story of us ended here * nangis * I hope I can heal fast. Amiin. Think of it, I pray to Allah for giving me the signs. I pray to Allah for best love story, I pray to Allah if he's the one then he'll stay. Then this thing, happened. My heart is bleeding, my heart is wounded again. It hurts. But then again, think of it. Allah get me through this path, heart broken, Allah SWT let me met a man who didn't want to stay, a man who chose to push me away. While I was so in love and was hoping he'll change his mind but he decided to say no. I am still in denial. I am still in so much pain that I can't stop crying.  But then again, think of it.  Again.  This is the answer to my du'a, this is the answer to my istikharah, Allah  SWT just showed me.  Think of it again Zafirah, Don't you think this is the best? subhanAllah. You prayed for this (and still praying). inilah jawapannya, Tuhan tunjuk te...

  Was not a coffee drinker. Was not a fan because it's bitter. Life's so sweet for I don't need coffee to make it better. At least that what I have thought earlier. Not until I realised, Life has been hard I fell and crashed Hopeless and crumpled within whys and hows? To look back how I miss the old smiles and awes The butterflies and the flowers The scents and the colours for I was once believed everything is ours. Wilted and gone,  broken and torn. Thought you were a home, but guess I was wrong? Coffee is bitter. But life is alot more to compare. Now I finally drink coffee, so I can believe that If I can quench a cup of bitter coffee, Then I must be able to survive life.  You'll see. Zafirah Ripin,  June 13th 2023 (Tuesday) 09:59am, Kota Belud.

Assalamualaikum wbt. Here's some of pics of me while doing my assignments at Kota Belud Library. Essentials Deep inside, busy busy begini lah yang aku rindu untuk berkeputusan sambung study. Tapi stress pula haha dengan kerja di sekolahnya yang tidak menang tangan dibuatnya. Tapi, begitulah harga untuk mendapatkan ilmu bisikku. Sempat juga aku mempersoalkan tindakan aku sambung study di saat life aku yang aku boleh cakap-- "nda sambung study pun masih okay sebenarnya, I have a stable job alhamdulillah, I live with my family alhamdulillah, my school is near, tapi macam sendiri cari masalah menyusahkan diri. Bakpe lah weh?" haha. Tapi, demikianlah hidup kan?. Masing-masing tindakan kita dipandu oleh "sebab" tersendiri. I have my own reasons, and Alhamdulillah apa yang aku buat ini tidak merugikan pun. Bermanfaat untuk diri sendiri dan ummah I might say. Jauh sekali untuk bermegah. Hek elleh master je wak.  Justeru, apa saja langkah yang kita ambil, walau pun rasa ...

 Bismillah. Assalamualaikum wbt. It's not easy hey! Begitulah mukadimah untuk semester pertama master seorang Zafirahahaha! Semester pertama perjumpaan pertama dibuat pada bulan March 2023. Semester pertama perjumpaan kedua dan terakhir dibuat pada bulan 27 Mei-03 Jun 2023. Semua ini dibuat pada cuti sekolah. Hal ini membawa maksud, cuti sekolah ni apa? haha. Kelas kami online untuk perjumpaan kedua ini. Bayangkan, di kala ahli keluarga menikmati cuti weekend yang panjang sebab cuti Kaamatan, aku pula mengurungkan diri di bilik bersahabat baik dengan komputer riba, telefon pintar, buku catatan dan zoom meeting. Amboi.  Inilah set up kelas online ku selama 8 hari. Aku sengaja letak depan tingkap macam ni. Selain untuk lighting, ini juga adalah salah satu cara untuk memastikan aku rajin iron tudung untuk lebih yakin on camera masa kelas sedang berlangsung. Mengambil pengajaran dari kelas pertemuan pertama, penting sangat untuk menyiapkan diri dengan set up place yang best (kondu...