Tentang Convo 2.

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 Assalamualaiukum wbt. Hi! Ramadan kareem 1446H :)

I'm writing this in the 17th night of Ramadan, Alhamdulillah. Always my favourite. 

I'm back here to bring up my super concern and my heavy heartfelt over my master journey.

I am in the end and almost passing by the finishing line, but it's yet so far to reach.

I actually not sure if I can graduate this year :(

My other friends are mostly already get their letter of "Tamat Pengajian dan Layak Dianugerahkan Ijazah Sarjana" but it's so sad to know that, as for me I have to continue another one semester. Ugh!

Kau pernah berada di semester -1 ? haha *typing haha in tears

Saya tersangkut di skala 9 sebab belum memenuhi syarat bergraduasi dan tamat pengajian seperti yang ditetapkan oleh pihak universiti. Saya belum berjaya menerbitkan penulisah artikel saya. The organizer said, it can be published on April which I am not sure if I have enough time to fit myself into graduation after all the procedures and all.  

It's such a bowl full of worries! sebab apa lah makna habis belajar tanpa graduasi?. 

My family and myself are rooting for this since day one!. Two years of counting fire places to ashes, two years of school breaks without school breaks, two years of thousands and thousands of money used, two years of tears and fears confronted, two years of stuggles to finish strong and I finished 4 semesters with good grades, alhamdulillah. 

Maybe this is the after effect of my hiccups here and there while I was doing my assignments last minutes at most of the times, or anything related to "keberkatan menuntut ilmu", who knows?. 

I redha already. It's just, graduation is everyone's dreams. And it's not my only dream alone. My family members are picturing my convocation trip with all my nieces and nephews who are so excited to save up money for "Mami Lala's Convocation Trip". They're so excited for most of them will take their very first flight in their life. My graduation matters in making their dreams come true. And I am selfish if I can't make it to graduation and I'll be the most hated betrayer of my self. Ugh!

So, in the silence night of this full of barakah night in Ramadan. I pray hard to Allah SWT, may HE ease my journey and make my heart easy in accepting whatever HE decided for me. If graduating is best, then Allah SWT will let me graduate and if not, to Allah SWT I give everything that I can't control and to Allah SWT I believe, everything will be coming in the shape of the most beautiful hikmah that I can claim in akhirah *pinky promise ya Rabb!. 

So for now, I'll be patient and keep believing in Allah SWT plans. I just gotta enjoy every bits of my life while waiting for the surprise in April onwards. Fuh.

Allah, I believe in You. The best, is yet to come. Kan?. 

In shaa Allah. Amiin.


#Pray4MasterSifuZafirah #Pray4ZafirahWithYoukm

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