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Assalamualaikum wbt. Haaaaaaai blog! It's been awhile! Kan? 2 days more before we are all gonna say goodbye to 2021 and will be saying hello to 2022! Let's do some posts to wrap up our 2021 okay? Let's go!   Till next post! 💜

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum wbt. Hai. 04 November is unforgettable date.  Bitter. But memorable.  Hard. But acceptable. I was born in 1995. Bapa was in 1959. I just realised, the numbers are around there.  Ila, Bapa. 1995, 1959.  9559. Special.

Been in deep thought of my feelings. It comes naturally and eventually as they said. It's risky to get involved. Hate it but guess I need it? Is it really okay? Is it confirmed? Is it me? Is it you? Is it might someone behind me, that  I don't know? Who knows? It's like shuffling puzzle pieces while I'm in the middle of trying to sort things out, and to make it clear and sure. Been in deep thought of what are we. It takes me times,  It takes you times, It takes us times. Take the whole times we need. While ones should remember,  times might bring something... hurtful. So for now, 우리 사랑하지 말아요.

Assalamualaikum wbt. Hi.  I will be back to Tawau this coming Saturday. I believe I am so ready to be back. It is just typical of me being unstable emotion few days before the day and let's just call it as far-away-from-home-soon syndrome. I've been facing the reality of being far from home like for years since highschool then to uni then up until now I am working far far far away from home. It's just typical me swallowing the reality with sorrows and tears.  I should be used to it since I was and still is living far from home. And here I am, fighting with my own thoughts. The distance really hates me to be close by my Mom's eyes. Such a jealousy! Amazingly, how bad the syndrome can be, I still can manage to collect my energy and courage to pack my things and being totally rational even my heart is screaming to make me stop and stay. Like I said, at this time my mind is really functioning well lol. The truth is, it is not that I hate what I am doing, what work I am resp...

Assalamualaikum wbt hi my blog reader(s) (which is me, since I am the only big fan of my own blog muahahaha!) and Dayang, are you reading? hihi. Just come here to reminiscing some beautiful memories which I think I haven't post them anywhere around the internet yet. So, here you go blog, please help me to keep them for me in the future k?. Meet my Abang Yasser. My favourite big brother. Yes of course, he is the only big brother I have. So got no choices hahaha. Nope, I truly meant it, Abang Yasser is the best brother that I ever asked for. in the whole world. He is not perfect but he has such a beautful heart and very very hard working man. Gotta find a man with such attitude and character. I believe Abang already gave me his best being a good brother. My abang Yasser like years years years ago. He's smaller here than now if you know what I meant? hihi. Next, my SEMEKAR friends. I really really enjoyed my SEMEKAR life on 2013-2014. I met amazing friends and we created lots of b...

Assalamualaikum wbt. Hey. It''s been awhile blog!. This should be posted sharp on 28th April 2021 on my birthday. But you know, the mood of posting is not always there but trust me, I wrote these waaaaay eaarlier that I decided to post it, which is now-- today, this day (refer the date of this post) hehe. So, just to compare how I answer my TMI questions from last year, so I made it colour coded. So   Pink=2020 Black=2021 So let's get started! QUESTIONS!   1: What are you wearing?  = A pink t-shirt (it's Kak Tika's btw haha) + tracksuits + a black shawl which I am not wearing it properly. heh. = Jubah in maroon. 2: Ever been in love? = I think, yes. But oh maybe no. Does BTS counts? haha. = I think  yes and yes.   3: Ever had a terrible breakup? = Never. =  Not yet.   4: How tall are you? = 153.5cm = Nothing changes haha.   5: How much do you weigh? = 6_ kg (alamak) = 5_kg (but I am gaining weight ish)   6: Any tattoos? = Nope. = Never. ...

  This  blogpost  is  BTS  related hehe. Film Out by BTS: This song is so beautiful. The melody, the lyrics, the singers, the music video and  the la la la part is the only la la la I need in my life hahah. Oh well, my nephews and my nieces call me "Mami Lala", so yeah no wonder why I love la la la so much hehe. My favourite part in the song is: 淡々と降り積もった記憶の中で 君だけを拾い集めて繋げて 部屋中に映して眺めながら 込み上げる痛みで 君を確かめている Tantan to furitsumotta kioku no naka de Kimi dake wo hiroi atsumete tsunagete Heya juu ni utsushite nagame nagara Komiageru itami de kimi wo tashikamete iru From all the memories stored in my heart I gather up the ones of you, link them together Gazing at them projected across the room I feel you with every burst of pain And Jimin's part on the high note of course, RM, Suga and Jhope amazing rap,  Jin is really shining bright in this song, I guess every BTS song in Japanese always gave Jin the spotlight he deseved which I am so happy about it. Joogkook ...

This picture was taken somewhere at the end on 2019. My first time to Tawau and never imagine that I'll be stay there for a along time. Life is full of surprises. #Tawesome!  

  Assalamualaikum wbt. I love this memory of us; Rindu Alin, dan yang lain.  Shoo shoo Covid!, we want to gather up again.

 Assalamualaikum wbt! Hi! Some say, 2021 first rule is, don't talk about 2020. Sorry, I have to disagree with that statement because, 2020 was not really that bad. Well, at least for me, alhamdulillah. This post is flooded with pictures of my 2020. Really in rush updating this, so will not talk alot. Just lets look at them pictures okay! Friends gathering before PKP and all: Our Hari Raya PKP photograph as a family : My siblings. I'm a Mami Lala of 15! The one who owns my heart. My Nasyeed boys! : Let's see if I can recall their names, ehem. Azuan. Nadzrul, Irfan, Bendem, Fitri, Ajis, Farish and Idlan  wow I still remember ! My 2020 was awesome with the fact that they won the 1st place on Nasyeed competition early on March 2020! My bro aka my driver to school and fetch me after school too aka our nasyid coach : My last moments in SEMPEN before went to Tawau for good. With Pengetua. Bilik guru yang penuh dengan guru-guru hebat dan gagah! Meja belakang Yaya tu meja aku. Macam...