19951959

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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum wbt. Hai.

04 November is unforgettable date. 
Bitter. But memorable. 
Hard. But acceptable.



I was born in 1995. Bapa was in 1959.

I just realised, the numbers are around there. 

Ila, Bapa.
1995, 1959. 

9559. Special.

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