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Memori Anak.

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum wbt. Bapa selalu pesan ni masa hantar pegi asrama sambil hulur duit belanja: "Belajar ini adalah perjuangan, teruskan berjuang". Setiap kali hantar ke sekolah dengan pesanan ini.  Aku seorang anak yang tidak puas "minta puji" dengan bapa sebab takut bapa, tapi bukan sebab bapa pernah marah pun, malah hubungan kami adik-beradik dengan bapa sangat baik dan mesra. Sebab aku banyak masa di asrama, mungkin. Mahu cakap yang jarang betul aku ada deep conversation dengan bapa. Faktor belum matang juga mungkin. Benda ni aku sesali padahal boleh jak mengada-mengada dengan bapa. Tapi, ish nda sempat :( Aku ingat masa kecil dulu, bapa test aku eja nama sendiri Siti Zafirah atas kertas. Masa tu aku tidak pandai membaca lagi, eja nama sendiri pun tidak pandai masa tu. Apa aku buat?, aku curi-curi tengok nametag aku dengan berhati-hati supaya bapa tidak nampak lepastu tulis atas kertas konon aku berjaya tulis nama sendiri.  Bapa pernah masakkan aku maggi...

To describe my feelings through songs.

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I really want to scream my heart out to tell you about how tired I am fighting with my own ego and feelings at most of the moments in my day everyday.  I know I am not alone facing this. In fact there are more people struggle more than I am.  This pandemic, really brings us hard to the bottom at all sorts in our lives. It's hard to hold ourselves for too long from meeting our loved ones.  It's tiring to fight this battle but at the same time we know we cannot give in.  But, let's believe in ourselves; we can get through this and we surely will win this fight. " Hang in there dear self. Be strong for a lilttle while longer. We need to win this!" Here are songs that relates my emotions every time the wind of missing my family blows : (most of them are the Korean songs, it's better to listen with translations once) Spring Day - BTS. "  Miss you Saying this makes me miss you even more Miss you Even though I’m looking at your photo Time’s so cruel, I hate us...