Monolog kecil seorang di kawasan zon merah.

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Tawau, SEPTEMBER 18 2020, JUMAAT.

Selfish-kah aku?

Untuk berharap berita-berita kes penularan wabak yang tidak terduga surutnya bila ini adalah khabar angin yang boleh dipertikaikan.

Selfish-kah aku?

Berharap laporan peningkatan kes-kes yang berselerak di mana-mana ini cuma khabar yang menjengkelkan untuk menakut-nakutkan hati yang pura-pura berani?

Selfish-kah aku?

Untuk berharap, lockdown lah bila-bila pun asal masanya bukan diamnya aku di sini.

Selfish-kah aku?.

Tawau, LD, Semporna dan di mana pun,

 sembuh lekas.


Aku mahu pulang.



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